You must figure out how your wayward spouse is actually treating you and then enforce your own Betrayed Spouse’s Bill of Rights.

betrayed spouse's bill of rights

By Sarah P.

I want to cover the change in the new year from a different perspective and the idea of an inventory seemed perfect. This concept is especially helpful regarding the concept of worth in our relationships.

I wanted to write something that was both useful and actionable. We need to take an inventory of what we already have in our marriages.

We need to figure out what works in our marriages and find opportunities to do more of it. But, we also need to know our worth and set boundaries based on self-respect with others.

All of it starts with truly listening and understanding.


Listen to Understand

Bringing out the good involves listening to understand. Instead of thinking of how you will respond when your spouse is talking, focus all of your attention on him or her and try to understand what he or she is really trying to say. Give the benefit of the doubt, when merited. Most importantly, sometimes it is extremely important to take someone’s words as truth.

I cannot tell you how many times one person in a couple will say one thing, but the other spouse will literally hear another. This causes a communication breakdown and does not allow the best aspect of one’s spouse or partner to emerge. For example, let us consider the topic of breakfast:

Husband: Honey, since it is Saturday morning, I thought we could go out for pancakes. That little place on Main Street makes the best breakfasts.

Wife: If you do not like my cooking, why don’t you just say so. (Wife walks off.)

Notice that the husband said absolutely nothing about whether or not he liked his wife’s cooking.

Let us get inside the man’s head. In this backstory, the man does not want to make his wife cook breakfast and he thinks the restaurant on Main Street makes the best breakfasts of all restaurants in town. (He also does not compare his wife’s cooking to restaurants.) He does not communicate this as clearly as he could since it did not occur to him that his wife would take his words as an insult.

Let us get inside the wife’s head. Recently, the wife has been feeling very insecure, especially since her husband broke off an affair three months before the breakfast discussion. She has been searching herself for reasons why she might have caused her husband to stray. (As we know, the wife did not cause her husband to stray—that was his choice—but, she does not know that right now. Additionally, there are still many toxic messages out there making betrayed spouses culpable for an affair and I will discuss that later.)

Thus, she believes her husband is criticizing her cooking and that perhaps her cooking may have even been one of the reasons he strayed. Note: when people are going through the beginning stages of affair recovery, they are shell-shocked and flooded with stress hormones. Unfortunately, through no fault of their own, they have a reduced ability to think neutrally.

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Therefore, it is important to really listen to what your spouse is saying and then for someone to clarify. Let us try this again:

Husband: Honey, since it is Saturday morning, I thought we could go out for pancakes. That little place on Main Street makes the best breakfasts.

Wife: If you do not like my cooking, why don’t you just say so!

Husband: Oh sweetheart, I love your cooking and just wanted to give you a small break so that we could relax and spend some time together.

Of course, in real life some husbands are not emotionally intelligent enough to say such a thing. Some husbands would also walk off and stonewall their wives for the afternoon, punishing them rather than trying to understand their wife’s perspective.

If a husband were to stonewall, an entire day could be ruined. The fallout of the incident would cause more distance between the couple. Most often, it is up to a wife to ask a clarifying question. Here is the scenario again:

Husband: Honey, since it is Saturday morning, I thought we could go out for pancakes. That little place on Main Street makes the best breakfasts.

Wife: I have been feeling insecure lately and some part of me feels hurt—I feel like you do not like my cooking. I feel like you see me as a failure. Is this true?

Husband: I did not mean that at all. I love your cooking and wanted to give you the morning off so we could have a relaxing breakfast together without distractions.

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Here, the wife asks the clarifying question and the husband has the opportunity to more clearly state what is on his mind. Of course, he does not say “I am sorry” or address her insecurity. But, he does clarify and that is a start. Sometimes we must accept a move in the right direction, even if it is an imperfect form of communication.

Most often we must teach people how to treat us and this happens gradually.

The (Early) Perspective of the Wayward Spouse

In the early days of recovery, many wayward spouses are not emotionally or spiritually evolved enough to relate to their betrayed spouse in a way that includes empathy. If they begin to empathize with the plight of their betrayed spouse, they soon realize they were responsible for shattering their spouse’s love, dignity, self-esteem, and trust.

Many people cannot handle the idea that who they think they are is not who they are at all. Many don’t realize that is not our ego-based thoughts about ourselves that define who we are – our actions and the way we show up in the world define who we are. Yes, sometimes “nice people” royally mess up and have affairs, but if they are truly nice, they start to make things right.

But, I digress.

Sometimes I wonder if affairs happen because in some contexts they are tacitly encouraged.

I came across a very interesting poem from almost 2,000 years ago about the sin that never goes out of style.

Adultery is as old as humanity itself and sometimes it is the sin that often defines a man’s “manhood” to his peers while crushing the tender hearts of wives. Augustine of Hippo was born in the year 345 AD. Yet, when you read this fellow’s poem, you can almost picture a group of male friends, sitting at a bar together, watching a game, and telling stories about the conquests that happen behind their ‘trusting’ wives’ backs.

Most cruelly, dallying with others is often a symbol of masculinity and men throughout the ages have sometimes encouraged this toxic form of masculinity. In college, my first serious boyfriend broke up with me because he was loyal to me and in love. His friends said he was not fun anymore and unrelentingly called him “pussy whipped.” After several months of it, he broke it off with me and started sewing his oats far and wide. His only sin was monogamy. About 1,700 years prior, Augustine de Hippo telling the very same story:

 [Y]ou are not ashamed of your sin [in committing adultery] because so many men commit it. Man’s wickedness is now such that men are more ashamed of chastity than of lechery. Murderers, thieves, perjurers, false witnesses, plunderers and fraudsters are detested and hated by people generally, but whoever will sleep with his servant girl in brazen lechery is liked and admired for it, and people make light of the damage to his soul. And if any man has the nerve to say that he is chaste and faithful to his wife and this gets known, he is ashamed to mix with other men, whose behaviour is not like his, for they will mock him and despise him and say he’s not a real man; for man’s wickedness is now of such proportions that no one is considered a man unless he is overcome by lechery, while one who overcomes lechery and stays chaste is considered unmanly.” 
Augustine of HippoSermons 1-19

And so it is today as it was in the 4th century. Toxic masculinity (as manifested in adultery) has been around for a long time, but thankfully we women have choices. We are not longer chattel and we can be the master’s of our own destiny.

This year I say that we write our own destiny and it all begins with self-worth. Most importantly, maintaining self-worth means setting boundaries when our spouse or anyone else mistreats us. 

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Worth and How Others Value You (or not) 

No matter how someone treats you, how you treat yourself is paramount.  There is a most important and over-arching piece of this process: worth.

No matter where you are in your recovery process, this year, I want you to establish a solid sense of worth. This can happen when we do an inventory of how those close to us actually treat us.

Does your spouse, your family, and even your close friends treat you as if you have a sense of inherent value?

If the answer is “no” then you must make yourself heard and explain specific behaviors to a person who makes you feel unworthy. You must explain what they do that makes you feel unworthy and then explain the specific behavior you would expect from them to make things right.

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While life would be easier if everyone could read each other’s minds, this is simply not the case for 99% of the population. Therefore, we must clarify and not assume.

When you clarify what you need to feel worthy, you can gain respect. But, a person’s reaction to you will give you a good idea about their motives.

Some people are unable to show you that you are worthy to them because they have no emotional context that would allow them to behave in ways that demonstrate your worth. If these people are willing to be taught (and willing to do) what you need to feel cherished and full of value, then such people are ‘worth’ keeping around.

However, there are other people out there who believe that seeing someone else’s value diminishes their own value. I believe in cutting people lose when they do not see your individual value. After all, you have infinite, individual value.

Then there is the conundrum of the wayward spouse who wants to diminish the betrayed spouse’s value. Sometimes a wayward spouse will refuse to see the inherent worth in her betrayed spouse because she will feel like the world’s biggest idiot. After all, what kind of person cheats on someone who has infinite value?

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Some wayward spouses must cling to the narrative that their betrayed spouse is flawed in order to assuage their own guilt over an affair. As long as the betrayed spouse is flawed in the eyes of the wayward spouse, the wayward spouse does not have to look at her own actions or the absolute emotional violence and devastation her actions caused to the betrayed spouse.

To digress and explain the phrase ‘emotional violence.’ This is not a concept I have written about before, but this is a concept and phrase that came to be while speaking with a particularly savvy and perceptive woman about the topic of infidelity. It is the perfect phrase to describe what a wayward spouse does to a betrayed spouse.

An affair is the emotional equivalent of being pushed onto the subway tracks in NYC and then being run over by trains all day until there is seemingly nothing left of your original form. Being betrayed is a form of total annihilation of self—at least in the first few weeks after D-Day.

Being betrayed is really one of the worst kinds of emotional violence that can be wrought upon a person. This is because being betrayed is not just about ‘being betrayed.’ It is about secrets, it is about lies, it is about broken vows, it is about broken contracts, and it is sometimes even about death. Death may happen because of suicidal depression or because a betrayed spouse is given a disease such as AIDS or cervical cancer due to a sexual affair.

I am a survivor of cervical cancer, which my doctor confirmed was caused by my ex’s affair. The treatment I endured to get rid of the cancer compromised my ability to have children. Fortunately, through divine intervention I was able to have children.

Adultery is ugly and yet it is a type of ugliness that was specifically created.

It is difficult to describe how ugly adultery is without including such deeply personal and life-changing after effects.

If you have not told your story of adultery to anyone for fear of feeling ashamed, this might be the year where you confide in someone you trust. The purpose of confiding is not to shame your spouse or to play tit-for-tat—it is to make your voice heard.

It is to show and tell the world, “I’m still standing.” It is to marvel at your own inner-strength for surviving an event that is equivalent to living in the inner ring of hell. Recovering from adultery is like winning an emotional version of the Iron Man triathlon.

Further, I want you to assess how the last year has gone for you as a couple. Have you seen concrete actions from your wayward spouse that demonstrate you have value to her (or him)? How has he or she demonstrated your value to you? Has your spouse learned what it is that makes you feel loved and special or has your spouse continued to assume that whatever he/she needs is also what you need?

Is your wayward spouse a “rug sweeper”?

Is your spouse willing to meet your emotional, physical, spiritual, and companionship needs?

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What needs to change in order to correct the flaws?

The Betrayed Spouse’s Bill of Rights

If no one ever taught you that you deserve a basic amount of respect from others, then you might be unaware of some “rights” that I believe are universal.

Often, our families of origin provide us with the opposite of respect or nurturance and so we are not even aware we have rights. If not our families of origin, then it is our betrayers who show us we have no rights. I have put together The Betrayed Spouse’s Bill of Rights for the New Year:

    • You have a right to be seen and accepted for who and what you are
    • You have a right to all passwords and phone records so that you can periodically check in on your spouse
    • You have a right to have control over financial matters. (Note: If you do NOT do the finances in your home, you could be in a heap of trouble. I am a huge advocate for women/men to learn investing and financial planning.)
    • You have a right to the truth told from an objective perspective
    • You have a right to withhold trust until your spouse has made a significant and sincere effort
    • Speaking of that… you have a right to sincerity in general
    • You have a right to request an STD test from your spouse periodically (or at least until you are sure your spouse is out of the affair fog)
    • You have a right to know who the other person is
    • You have a right to take the time and space you need to figure out whether or not you would like to divorce or make an attempt at recovering your marriage
    • You have a right to collect and hold onto evidence of the affair
    • You have a right to an emotionally safe relationship
    • You have a right to have a relationship that is free of gaslighting
    • You have a right to discuss the affair with those whom you trust
    • You have a right to blamelessness on your part—you did not cause the affair or create it
    • You have a right to feel cherished
    • You have a right to feel both physically and emotionally safe in your home and marriage. (Note: bunny boilers need to move along and your spouse must ensure this happens)
    • You have a right to a physically and emotionally safe home for your children (If a wayward spouse wants to break up, you must stay in your house under all conditions. The wayward spouse must find another place to live.)
    • You have a right to tell your spouse that he or she has endangered the safety of all family members through his or her actions. (Many other women dislike being dumped and will often stalk the children of their former lover as a revenge tactic.)
    • If your wayward spouse wants a divorce, you have a right to keep your standard of living. (Employ the leanest and meanest attorney you can find to ensure that you and your children keep a larger slice of the pie. Otherwise, the other person will be spending the money that was rightfully yours and your children’s money.)
    • If you live in a state that recognizes the “alienation of affection” laws, you have a right to sue the other person and collect monetary damages.
    • You have a right to tell whomever you want about the affair
    • You have a right to feel valued
    • You have a right to take back control of your life
    • You have a right to mental peace
    • You have a right to a marriage where your spouse does not flirt with others or become “bosom buddies” with the opposite sex. 
    • You have a right to be loved for who you are, rather than compared to the other person.

In Summary

This is the year where it is time to take a good, hard look at your marriage. You must figure out how your wayward spouse is actually treating you and then enforce your personal Betrayed Spouse’s Bill of Rights.

As we know, many people do not like being caught in their most unflattering moments and called out for their behavior. But, it is essential to do this and to keep doing it.


What do you think of this post and some of the questions posed? Have you seen progress in your spouse or backsliding? Will you have the courage to exercise your personal Bill of Rights or is this topic touchy because of the way you have been treated recently?

How has last year gone and what hopes and dreams do you have for your marriage this year?

Wherever you are on this journey, I wish you many blessings for this year and many years to come.


    24 replies to "Taking Inventory: A New Approach to the New Year & A Betrayed Spouse’s Bill of Rights"

    • Shifting Impressions

      This is a really powerful post!!! The term EMOTIONAL VIOLENCE gave me goose bumps….it really says it all.

      The Betrayed Spouse’s Bill of Rights is right on the money in my opinion.

      • Sarah P.

        Thank you, Shifting. I almost regretted writing this because it was so hard core. But, I went with it any way. By the way, I want to give credit of the term emotional violence to another lovely woman, but when she said it, I immediately got the idea and built out the concept. So, she deserves the credit there and I like to give credit where it is due 🙂

        Hey if there are any male readers out there, I am not attacking you guys and I hope it was not taken that way. Just wanted to say that the Bill of Rights for betrayed spouses is equally yours — it is for betrayed spouses, regardless of genders.

        • Shifting Impressions

          I’m glad you went ahead with it….I think we need to call a spade a spade.

          Your message hit me hard. Over the holidays, my youngest daughter was the victim of domestic violence. Her boyfriend of only one year broke her arm when he lunged at her. Surgery was required. This hit our family hard as we thankfully have no history of this.

          My husband and I have been totally on the same page in dealing with this but I have to admit it has thrown me into somewhat of a dark place. Over the past few weeks I have found myself comparing the destruction of infidelity to the destruction of physical abuse. Maybe that is why the term EMOTIONAL VIOLENCE resonated so deeply with me.

          Thanks again

          • Sarah P.

            Hello Shifting,

            First off, I am SO SORRY that your daughter was the victim of domestic violence. THANKFULLY, your daughter has the best parents in the world because I am certain that you and your husband know this is unacceptable under any circumstance and that you will be by her side through this.

            I don’t know how far into the process she is, but expect lots of roses and apologies from her (hopefully) ex boyfriend. But, take my word for it, if someone does that kind of thing, there is more where that comes from. I have never seen a situation work out where a man hits a woman once. (Also, there are some men who have been battered by their wives and the same goes for battered men. A woman who is into violence will hit more than once. Just wanted to make it known that both men and women can be victims of domestic violence and it is just terrible.)

            I am sorry that your family has been going through this. No one deserves what your daughter has been through and I extend my prayers to her.

            Many blessings, Shifting, and lots of Love to you and your daughter,


            • Shifting Impressions

              Thanks Sarah
              Yes….she is getting help and says she is done with him. I hope that is the case.

              You are so right NO ONE deserves to be treated like that.

            • Sarah P.

              Hi Shifting,
              I hope she is done with him for good. If they are only a year into their relationship, she may still be “chemically” bonded to him and experience limerance. Limerance can be very hard to get over because it is both biological and psychological.

          • Tired

            This is awful SI. I hope the creep gets what he deserves. I have a feeling that the emotional effects of what happened are going to be a lot worse for your daughter than the physical. How could someone who is supposed to love you do that to you? I hope your daughter is ok. She is lucky to have such supportive parents. What a horrible thing to do to someone. Physical AND emotional violence a double sharp sword. I would be consumed with rage if someone did that to one of my daughters and Im sure you are having a hard time coming to terms with it too. I have loved reading your posts over the past couple of years and I wish you and your family well in getting over this awful event.

            • Shifting Impressions

              Thanks for the support. Strangely enough I don’t feel a lot of anger just sorrow. It all feels so tragic and yes we are having a hard time coming to terms with it. I probably haven’t gotten in touch with my anger yet.

              She is getting help and is working hard to move on.

    • Nearly Normal

      Fine article, Sarah.

      “Courage” – may i have more of it.

      Thanks for keeping this fresh in my mind.

      • Sarah P.

        Hello Nearly Normal,

        Glad you liked the article and staying courageous is a great thing. Heck, the act of recovering from such pain is courageous in and of itself. So you have it in spades.

        Many blessings,


    • Hopeful

      This was a great post. I connect with so much of what you wrote. I do think that emotional trauma/violence is under recognized in our society. I do not diminish physical abuse but emotional abuse or to whatever level it is becomes debilitating. In the case of betrayal it is overwhelming as I look back since it happened so gradually and my husband through his actions, thoughts, behaviors and how he spoke to me gradually had me questions everything internally. I beat myself up that I did not seek help or lay it on the line with him. I try not to be too hard on me. Even this past weekend he asked me why I was okay with him being who he was. I ask myself this every day and I also try to cut myself some slack since it is hard when someone/the person who is supposed to be closest to you is keeping their life a secret.

      My husband has been very introspective lately and still struggles with what he did. He said in order to do such immoral things he had to convince himself he was not “in love” with me, etc. He said it was hard enough to go through life but he told himself whatever he had to since he thought if it came out everything would be gone. Yet he did not see how it could work out. I give him credit for thinking it over and really looking inward and he said it still haunts him since he has no real reason why he did it except selfishness and entitlement. He says there was zero reason in his life besides that, not me, not the kids, not career nothing…

      The Betrayed Spouses Bill of Rights is excellent! I love that list. It is a good reminder I think to revisit through this healing process.

      • Sarah P.

        Hi Hopeful,

        I think I have an answer to the question of why you seemed to tolerate your husband’s bad emotional behavior at the time. (Why you were seemingly okay with who he was at the time.)

        I would bet it was one of those situations that slowly crept up on you. It happened gradually and over a period of time. Even the most savvy people do not notice slow change. It’s like the frog in the pot where the heat is turned up so slowly he doesn’t realize what is happening. The changes are so subtle they go unnoticed. They are only noticed after the damage is done and in retrospect.

        Also, selfishness and entitlement can be powerful things if people choose to listen to those thoughts. Some people are better at resisting them than others. People who are naturally more narcissistic than others live and breathe entitlement. (And people can have narcissistic thoughts and some behaviors without being a full blown narcissist as well). Some people feel naturally more entitled than others and I think part of it has to do with upbringing.

        I grew up in a house where the mantra was that no one owed me anything and I would have to work hard for what I wanted. And so I did and still do.

        Other people grow up in homes where the parents treat them as if they are special and above the rules. They are told they are better than others and are therefore entitled. Did your husband grow up in such a household?

        Then there are households where it’s all about how it looks on the outside. If people live in a big house and drive fancy cars, it doesn’t matter if they are sociopaths. The outward perception is all that matters and as long as the perception is there they can have no morals and it’s still ok. The message is that life is about appearances and not morality. That can breed an entitled attitude.

        So it could very well be that your husband’s only motivation was selfishness and entitlement. And he could have destroyed everything because of it. I am sure he has a lot to think about and will for a while. Hopefully he can use the lessons he has learned in his practice.

        • Hopeful

          Sarah, You stated it very well and I think you are right. It did come on gradually. He has even stated that. He said he can look back and recognize a gradual shift. And yes growing up entitled and indulged. And not just materially. He always had more than I had without working but I think it was more the attention. And when I look at how his childhood to adulthood went I am sure as he moved into adult hood the attention started to dissipate. And having a wife, family, and career just was not the same. I am such a different person too. I grew up like you and always the optimist and never needing someone else to make me happy. And if you work hard it will pay off and you always knew you did your best. To me I saw this guy who had a wife, family and very successful career with lots of family and friends and tons of support. It is interesting how two people in the same relationship/marriage can see things so differently.

          It does weigh on him. He has struggled recently that he did it for no reason. He said he had everything and almost threw it all away. I listen since I think it is the most important thing to do. I am never going to say it is okay. I do say I am glad it came out when it did. Who knows how long we would have lasted that way and also for our kids. The most positive thing is now when I hear him talk and really listen to him I can see his transparency and how genuine his feelings and thoughts are.

    • Angela

      I posted this question on a different article previously, but have gotten no replies. I was hoping I could get some insight about a situation next door. It also relates to a betrayed spouse’s rights (like the right to know they’re being betrayed!) Hoping someone has a do-able suggestion for this situation?

      The woman who lives next door is about 23yo, divorced, and has a 1.5yo son.

      There is an older couple who help look out for her and the child, spending holiday time, etc with them, even helping financially somewhat I believe, as they were all formerly friends and neighbors before the young woman divorced and moved here with the child.

      The older woman is a long-haul driver and gone much of the time, while the man and the young woman are here at home having an affair. (She just walked by me to their door as I sit here typing this, having just come off another 7-8 day road trip, has no idea what’s going on there and is being treated to her face “respectfully” in the home of her husband’s GF.) She is a wonderful lady with a genuinely great personality and pretty darn good looking, and incredibly kind and sweet, considering her profession would leave most women kind of rough around the edges.

      I really want to say something because watching this situation for months now sickens me. My only fear is that she will reveal WHERE she got the information and leave me in a pickle with someone I have to live next to. Any suggestions?

      • Sarah P.

        Hi Angela,

        First off, you deserve a gold star for watching the back of another woman. (I watch people’s backs too.)

        I can’t help but wonder what caused the 23/yo’s divorce and if the child is the child of her ex husband or of the man with whom she is having an affair.

        I was kind of in a similar situation one time (before I worked as a therapist) but I kept my mouth shut because I realized the person being cheated on simply would not believe me. And if he did believe me, he would shoot the messenger. I was not a friend of his but I kind of walked in on a scene that made it clear his own dad was having affair with his son’s gf. I pretended not to notice and kept my mouth shut since I had a business relationship with the dad. Very messed up.

        However, in this case, I would try to attain some facts and then leave a letter in her truck. I would stick strictly to facts. If you have not witnessed the affair and if you told her, the OW and wayward spouse will just be more careful. It really makes me ill to know this woman is being betrayed by her husband and by the other woman who I will assume is a “friend.”

        You almost need incriminating photos. But this woman needs to be warned in one way or another. It is so very sad for her and I know if I were in her situation I would want to know.

        I would rather have the hard, cold truth than sweet lies.

    • Untold

      Do it anonymously. Keep it to the facts, and if you have some evidence share it. Don’t speculate or editorialize. Just my opinion.

    • TheFirstWife

      Untold has the perfect approach.

    • Tired

      I totally agree with term emotional violence Sarah. What you say is so true. It is like being run over and over and it never stops. It is worse than physical pain because there is usually an end to physical pain or some sort of panacea, whereas emotional pain lingers on for years and destroys the self.

      I think betrayers do not understand because a large part of the pain is probably inflicted by our own beliefs. I’m not good enough, she was better than me, why would my closest friend/lover do such an awful thing to me? The wayward spouse knows his or her own mind. They may be thinking that the other person really didnt mean than much to them when they come out of the fog but the betrayed keeps thinking over the words and actions that happened during the affair and keeps replaying it over and over in their mind. And for me it is always why did my husband do this awful thing? And the excuses he made were mind boggling. “I haven’t been happy for years.’ For one. The first time I heard that was when there was another woman in the picture. If he really hadn’t been happy for years then he could have left, but there was no mention of it. Only when there was a woman wanting him did he suddenly realise he hadn’t been happy for years. Of course this is the way it usually goes and the true reason I think is that the cheater has to find a way to justify their behaviour to themselves. They are too good to be a cheater, right? Therefore in order to be able to live with this awful and cruel behaviour they have to tell themselves that they were never happy anyway, even that you must have deserved it. Well I’m unfortunately not fortunate to possess psychic powers and I did not see that my husband hadn’t been happy for years.

      What I saw was a man who hated his job and was so unhappy because his boss was a horrible and nasty person who put everyone in the workplace down, went off at people on the spur of the moment and made it hard for anyone who worked for him not to become despairing and dreading to go to work. I do acknowledge that I probably got sick of listening to it all and may have been a bit less supportive than I could have been. But a month before the affair we were having the time of our lives in Europe. Because he was away from work he was happy.

      Of course the affair partner also worked there and she understood what was going on so it was easy for them to start confiding with each other until it got out of hand. It was a slippery slope. But I do not agree with my husband’s opinion that it wouldn’t have happened if I had come to his work to see how hard he worked et cetera. I believed he worked hard, but how many other people go to their partner’s work to watch them work? I would find it peculiar and embarrassing if my husband came to follow me around at work. What I should have done is praised him more I think. He said he was working hard ‘for me’, however if he wanted to please me I really would have liked to see more of him at home. I don’t care about being rich or successful. But I had said that to him and he didn’t listen. So what he wanted for himself (to be rich and successful) he saw as “doing it for me.” I am pleased he thought that, but working your ass off and making yourself so unhappy with your life is really not going to help your relationship. Hello?

      • Sarah P.

        Hello Tired,

        It seems all cheaters follow a script and they more or less always find a way to blame their betrayed spouse for it all.

        They have no idea that being betrayed changes the brain and it is hard to move on from trauma.

        People who cheat need to be accountable for their own actions and their own choices. So, to me it sounds like your H is grasping at straws. It is always interesting how they “re-write” the quality of their marriage after they meet the other person. The marriage could be going along great, but then the other person enters the picture and they need an excuse. They need a reason to feel entitled to their behavior.

        Why does he work so hard? What is he trying to escape?

    • Tired

      Hi Sarah. Thanks for replying. He worked so hard because he was hoping for career advancement at the time (and she was hoping for his career advancement as well, which is probably why she latched on to him). Any hope he had of that was done and dusted after his carrying ons at work became public knowledge. He has moved to another job in another field now.

      What was he trying to escape? I think at the time he had a number of problems. There was an awful boss as I mentioned, but a boss who was potentially going to be useful for him so he bottled up the bad feelings and tried to soldier on. There were some financial problems as well that were pretty major at the time. And more. I think he just couldn’t cope and felt like running away from it all rather than being an adult and facing it square on. And then there was an admiring employee who told him life could be better if he just listened to her. It was all a fantasy and I think he sees that now. His problems were never going to go away unless he faced them head on. Running off with another woman would have felt good in the beginning but the underlying problems would have kept on festering. And financially he would have been up shit creek, in an even worse situation than before. I hope that is not why he stayed.

      He doesn’t feel like that now. That was over 2 years ago. But I am left dealing with the fallout. Yet he thinks I can just forget those awful words. “She understands me.” AKA: “you don’t.” In women’s interpretation: ” she is better than me.” Yet my rational brain can see a desperate woman who mirrored what my husband wanted to see for her own gain and in that she was very calculated. A shame he still thinks she was an innocent young thing whom he hurt. The rational brain tells me this woman was nothing in terms of accomplishment and education compared to me. It’s a shame the irrational emotional brain takes over!

      • Sarah P.

        Hi Tired,
        Just saw this comment. I am offended on your behalf that your H sees the spouse poacher as an innocent young thing that he hurt. That just speaks to the finely honed manipulation tactics these poachers use. The really sneaky ones actually make their target (married man) believe the poacher is the victim and not the perpetrator. Just disgusting beyond words.


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