emotional affair journey surveyWe wanted to thank everyone who took the time to respond to our most recent survey.  There are always some interesting takeaways (interpretations) when we do these things and this one didn’t disappoint.

We’re not going to address every question, but will touch on the ones we thought you’d be most interested in.

Even so, this summary is a long one.  There were several questions and you all contributed lots of additional thoughts, suggestions, fears and frustrations.

So without further adieu, let’s dive in…

Please feel free to add your takeaways and comments in the section below the post.


 

Emotional Affair Journey Reader Demographics

Not surprising that 86.8% of you are female.

89.6% between the ages of 35 – 62

95.3% of you are the betrayed spouse.  Not too surprised here, but the percentage of readers who are the betrayed is a bit higher than in past surveys.

Looking at questions 2 and 4, it is very apparent that most readers are older and have been married or in a relationship for many years.  In fact, 77.6% have been married for more than 15 years, and a whopping 40.2% for more than 25 years!

We wondered if this is the profile for most relationships that experience infidelity or just happens to be the profile for readers of this site.  It would be interesting to see if there are any studies that have been done that address this.

Eighty-five percent of you are still married.  Only 17.7% are separated, divorced (or have filed for divorce) or not married.  Some apparently chose more than one answer.

Why so high of a percentage of couples who have remained married?  We have to think that age and length of time married have something to do with this – as well as determination and a will to fight for the marriage.  Your thoughts???

 

Affair Information

Question 7: Was the affair emotional, physical or both?

Emotional affair                                41.9%   

Physical affair                                   3.4%     

Both emotional and physical            47.9%   

Not really sure                                  10.3%

 

Question 8:  How long ago was the affair first discovered (your D-day)?

0-3 months ago                                 4.7%     

4-6 months ago                                 8.4%     

7 months to 1 year ago                    23.4%   

1 to 2 years ago                                27.1%   

longer than 2 years ago                   36.4%   

*Obviously this indicates that recovering and healing from an affair takes a long time.

 

Question 9:  Is the Affair over?

Yes                         62.1%   

No                          10.3%   

Not sure                 27.6%

*The fact that 37.9% of you either know for sure that the affair isn’t over or aren’t sure if the affair is over, is troubling.

 

Question 10:  Why do you think the Affair happened?

*This question allowed for multiple answers and it would appear that many of you think there were multiple reasons for the affair – or you just don’t know for sure.

Some of the “other” reasons mentioned were:

  • Spouse rekindled a past flame
  • Husband is a control freak
  • Cheating spouse suffered from depression
  • Our relationship was really bad –  lots of arguing and poor communication
  • “My husband was an immature selfish asshole”
  • ADHD
  • Lack of intimacy
  • Job issues
  • Infertility
  • Grown apart in marriage
  • Revenge
  • Triggered from sudden tragic death of a parent, combine with Internet availability, setting off addictive activities.
  • Spouse is passive aggressive and thus he feels that no one appreciates him…and she [OW] did!
  • Spouse has PTSD
  • Perfect storm of life events
  • Poor communication and lack of affection
  • Stress and not being happy with self
  • Narcissism
  • Stupidity
  • Spouse’s anxiety/depression disorder
  • Poor communication
  • Mental Health Issues
  • Don’t know for sure

 

Talking About the Affair

The next few questions dealt with talking about the affair.

Talking with your spouse…

The results indicate that only 26.9% of you talked “A lot” with your spouse about the affair while 73.1% of you talked very little or some, but not enough about the situation.  Meanwhile, 66.7% of you wanted to know everything – including details. 

What was surprising to us is that 40% of those who talked about the affair did so for less than 6 months.  Could there be a correlation between this and the fact that so many of you are still struggling 2 years after  D-day?

Talking with friends and/or family…

For those of you who decided to talk to friends or family members, 61.3% did so on a very limited basis and 44.3% felt it was somewhat helpful, but not as much as you would have liked.  Encouraging though was the fact that 34% felt talking with friends or family was extremely helpful.

Talking with a counselor…

There were 69.2% of you who spoke with a counselor and of that group, 31.5% did so alone and only 41% are still in counseling.  The rate at which you felt counseling was helpful or not was a mixed bag…

32.4% felt that counseling was mostly frustrating and not helpful, while 33.8% thought it was helpful, but not as much as you would have liked.  Just 33.8% thought counseling was very helpful.

For those who have not seen or talked to a counselor, here are the main reasons they have not:

 Some of the “other” reasons given were:

  • It’s over (Not sure if this meant the affair or the marriage)
  • Not really comfortable talking about it with a stranger
  • Difficult in a small town where we are well known
  • Just heard too many stories how things became worse
  • Not available where we live
  • Afraid of what I’ll hear
  • Have been to counseling before and did not find it all helpful
  • Lack of time; not sure it would be helpful regardless

 

dealing with infidelityDealing with Infidelity

The next group of questions dealt with how you’re dealing with infidelity at present.  Yes, the majority of you are still feeling the pain everyday at 57.9% while 37.4% think about it from time-to-time and just 4.7% feel that you’ve put it in perspective and have moved on.

59.2% of you feel that you have forgiven but 34% still have lots of anger and resentment towards the cheater.  7.8% have been able to let it go.

As far as healing from an affair goes…58.5% feel somewhat healed but will always carry the scar of the betrayal.  31.1% are still in great pain, while 12.3% have mostly healed and feel they have grown in many ways.

As always, trust is a big issue.  Only 5.3% feel their spouse is trustworthy.  48.4% are still very guarded and 46.3% have been able to rebuild trust to some extent but are still somewhat cautious.  Having said that, 47.3% feel that your relationship is better than before the affair.

For those of you who have divorced, 84.6% said that you have not been able to build trust enough to develop another intimate relationship and are still very anxious about being vulnerable or being hurt again.  15.4% have developed another relationship but hold back somewhat, and no one reported having developed a new and trusting intimate relationship.

 

What are you struggling with after the affair?

For the first time ever in our surveys, rebuilding trust is not the number one struggle.  It came in second though (at 61.5%) to dealing with painful thoughts, triggers and memories of the affair (76.9%)

Some of the other struggles mentioned include:

  • Reconnecting with one another
  • Dealing with the grief of losing their spouse and the life with him/her
  • Verbal abuse and physical intimidation
  • Self esteem
  • Not trusting my own feelings, not trusting positive things he says about me
  • Communication
  • Spouse refusing to come clean about the affair
  • Cheater’s continued denials  
  • Cheater’s lack of honesty
  • Acceptance of cheater’s decisions and their affects

 

What has been most helpful in dealing with your struggles?

Some of the other things mentioned:

  • Nothing has helped to this point
  • Forums often show me the ways many are handling things and I learn from their actions
  • Antidepressants
  • Returning to life – kid, job, family
  • Time
  • Emotional Affair Journey. Don’t think I would be where I am without this blog.

 

Preferred Media Types

Somewhat surprising is your choice of media type when researching or learning about infidelity or relationships.  We’d be interested in hearing why video and audio are disliked so much.  We’re guessing it’s because it’s more discreet and private to read versus listening or watching audio or video.

 

Your Fears

As always there were lots of fears for you guys when it comes to your relationship.  Many were the same or similar.  Here is a summary:

  • That the cheater will do it again (By far the number one fear)
  • Never being able to forgive, forget or trust again
  • The affair will not end but the marriage will
  • Never feel securely loved again
  • Never get over/past the devastation of the betrayal
  • The cheater not completely understanding the ramifications of his/her actions
  • Marriage going back to the way it was prior to discovering the affair
  • Not being able to move forward in the relationship
  • Financial issues, especially if divorced
  • The cheater will throw away all his/her opportunities
  • Not meaning anything to spouse and that he/she and the OP will live happily ever after
  • Cheater going back to old ways
  • Death
  • Being forever changed because of spouse’s choices
  • “Since I’m divorced and pursuing a new relationship, my biggest fears are to misjudge someone and be betrayed again. I’m working hard to avoid cynicism, but I’m definitely more guarded than ever.”
  • Cheater won’t go to counseling and/or make changes
  • Being hurt again and if it’s still happening and not knowing
  • Not knowing how things will turn out
  • The affair will restart and all wounds will be reopened
  • Never fully healing
  • Will always be guarded
  • Never allow self to love again.
  • Cheater falling back into old habits
  • Additional pain and loss.
  • Relationship will not survive
  • Whether or not the whole truth has been disclosed
  • “Are we really trying hard to improve our relationship or is it a ploy.”
  • Not being a good enough spouse
  • Of always feeling stuck in current situation emotionally
  • Remaining withdrawn, guarded, and unhappy with marriage
  • Cheater not resolving/working on his/her issues
  • Not wanting to live any longer with a liar, cheater, abuser…
  • Not being happy again in my marriage
  • Effects on the kids
  • “Wondering if he will ever express remorse to me and especially the children. The children have a very deep wound.”
  • “That he feels OW is the “one that got away”, or his one true love (not me)”
  • “That deep down I really don’t love my husband any more.”
  • “That he is going to chose to be with her instead of me. He is on the fence.”
  • That nothing will not change and I will continue to let it continue as it is
  • Spouse’s feelings for me won’t come back
  • That I will find out my husband has continued to lie to me.  Lack of honesty
  • “That our roommate situation is new normal….we will never have better life together…it just is.”
  • Not being able to reconnect with spouse
  • “That I will never be trusted again and always thought the worst of no matter what.”
  • Insecurity
  • Fate of the children
  • Falling back into the same old routine of marriage and not utilizing the tools learned in counseling
  • “That my wife is not truly satisfied in our relationship and that she will either cheat on me or leave me down the line. That I am not good enough for her.”
  • Giving up before trying to rebuild the relationship
  • Inability to communicate with spouse
  • Not regaining the level of intimacy that was once shared
  • Further anger and resentment
  • That the anger will never fully go away
  • Not being able to let go of the profound sense of helplessness

 

Your Frustrations

It is quite obvious that most of you are frustrated as a result of dealing with the affair. Here is a summary (with quotes) of those frustrations:

  • The cheater just wants to move on without talking about details (Number one frustration)
  • “I feel like I was used by the OM. Although it was a summer fling type of affair, I fell madly in love with him and he even expressed that he let his guard down with me and “likes” me very much, yet he will not call, text, or email me unless I do so first. I know that I meant nothing to him and it hurts knowing I risked losing my family over him.”
  • “I don’t feel he is being 100 percent truthful with me and he doesn’t want to talk about it or read anything I have asked him to read.”
  • “My husband refuses my invitations to reconcile and is hiding/spending much needed money on her; in fact, I think some of the reason money is so tight is his support of her and her children.”
  • Spouse’s dishonesty
  • Trickle truth
  • “That my husband does not seem to be able to understand what it is I need to help me get over this, and that he does nothing to further his understanding of the pain he has caused. He does not grasp the difficulty I have ‘getting over it ‘.”
  • “The thoughts that still come into my head on a daily basis”
  • Cheater wants spouse to just get over it
  • Trying to move forward and feel like the relationship will move in the right direction
  • “The unfairness of it. My husband cheated a lot, from the beginning, and I had no clue until last year. He has “repented” and is a “new person” but that really comes at little cost to him; I pay the price for his affairs – the pain, the anxiety. I pay the cost for his fun, and he gets to just go on with life.”
  • “That I can’t do anything about it.”
  • Financial dependency
  • “He is here with me, but he just had a child by the OW.”
  • Self esteem. Humiliation
  • That the affair happened as a result of Facebook
  • The triggers that hit and the cheater’s frustrations when they do (Another biggie)
  • “My husband not disclosing everything at once. Each time I find out more information, it sends me back to the beginning. I also don’t think he “gets” just what he has done to me and our marriage.”
  • Cheater not understanding how triggers affect the betrayed
  • Trusting again
  • “That the OW kept on taunting me. Sending me pictures of them together. All the texts they shared. She even sent me a diary of dates and events. Hotel receipts.”
  • “She still lives 3 blocks away and I can’t ever get away from her.”
  • “Hard for me to cope with limbo-ness. On the other hand,  I am learning to live in the present. Also, I get very angry at H when he rejects, or ignores our children, which is most of the time. Still learning how to help the kids through.”
  • Cheating spouse not helping the betrayed heal
  • “That it happened. That he never thought about what this would do to us and our marriage of nearly 40 years.”
  • Spouse is not fully committed
  • “Learning what is going on with him and how he deals with this.”
  • “How 2 people get together like my ex and the OW, planning their life events while knowingly the spouses will be aware and how wrong it is.”
  • “My husband is projecting his guilt and fears onto me. He constantly accuses me of looking for someone new (I’m not), he’s been looking up my old boyfriends on Google and Facebook and then grilling me about those relationships. His affair was with his college girlfriend.”
  • “Anger, resentment, can’t forgive, so hurt, don’t know why he did it”
  • “Erasing the memories that keeping playing back. He will not talk about what happened or why?”
  • “It was a long affair. Over two years. He doesn’t remember dates and details and the questions about the time line stay on my mind.”
  • “His defensiveness and resistance to delve further into why it happened; the feeling that he is not being 100% transparent.”
  • “He won’t talk about it 2) he doesn’t understand I need his help to heal 3) he hasn’t taken full responsibility 4) I’m not convinced there’s been no contact.”
  • “Stonewalling, lack of remorse, lack of validating my feelings( blowing them off) refusal to discuss the details I need to heal and lack of apology.”
  • “Dealing with it by myself. Knowing the OM is living his life like nothing happened. His spouse does not know. I want him to go thru the suffering I went thru. I have thought many times in confronting him but I think of my kids and don’t want them to have a father with an assault charge.”
  • “What a big waste of time affairs are and the incredible damage they cause.”
  • Cheater’s continued denial
  • Affair partners work together
  • “That he actively pursued the OW.”
  • “He just goes on like nothing happened.”
  • “Feeling like I am settling for someone who does not fully cherish me or appreciate me for who I am.”
  • “His refusal to see it for what it was. Still denies it was anything other than a normal friendship.”
  • Cheater in affair fog
  • “That I have to see her at work, and I don’t know if he’s truly over her.”
  • “He won’t communicate well…he is not attending to my needs, so I do for myself….he are not acting like husband and wife.”
  • “That my spouse always thinks of the worst case scenario first and does not look at the whole picture.”
  • “Trying to deal with the knowledge that my husband gave away the details and story of my life without my permission to someone I didn’t know. Trying to deal with the reminders all around wherever I go. Trying to “calmly” decide, after this cooling off period, if this marriage is worth staying in. Trying to understand how he could say the words he used to another woman, how he could treat her the way he did, how he could tell her things about himself that I never knew. Trying to learn how to forgive something that I always said I would never forgive.”
  • “The OW won’t go away. My husband won’t tell her to for fear of hurting her feelings.”
  • Not putting it behind me (on occasion) and moving on.
  • “On the one hand, it is not a big deal, it is over now, and it happens all over the world, every day to lots of people. On the other hand, it is a big deal and it is hard to let go. I get frustrated with my wife’s lack of honesty in the past. I get frustrated that she didn’t show as much caring remorse as I would have liked. I get frustrated that she now acts like it never happened yet I’m still dealing with it. I get frustrated that I still dwell on it and come to this site.”
  • “Understanding how my spouse could intentionally hurt me so bad but swears he never stopped loving me.”
  • “That he still at times tries to minimize the damage done.”
  • Forgiveness
  • “That my husband never really gave the OW a real and truthful ending. I’m aware that she thinks she could just start it up again if she wanted. I think he’s completely changed since the last contact and this isn’t true, but it annoys me that she still thinks this 2 years after being dumped.”
  • “He thinks he can be “friends” with her since the physical aspect of the affair ended 3 years ago (still an emotional relationship with her, and I discovered all of it only 8 months ago) – his perspective is that I need to be “kind, patient, show humanity” toward his friendship with her as she suffers from clinical depression and relies on him for support. I feel I cannot ‘compete’ with those kinds of needs, but do not want my marriage to end.”
  • “That it will always be with me and that it has tainted our marriage.”

 

Visitor frequency…

It was interesting to see the frequency of visits to our site…

 

Ideas for future topics…

There were also some excellent ideas for future topics and we will surely do our best to address as many of them as we can.  However, many will require some further research which may take some time to complete. 

Many of the suggestions were topics that we have addressed already – sometimes more than once.  This leads us to believe that either some folks aren’t taking advantage of the “Related Posts” mentioned at the end of each post nor the “All of our Posts” section at the very bottom of the page. 

We know these aren’t always the best solutions to finding what you want to read, so there is always the Search box in the right sidebar of the page where you can enter keyword terms to find relevant articles.  That said, we feel it might be useful to add an index of all the articles, so look for that in the near future.

There were also several valuable suggestions regarding layout, design, etc. that we will certainly try to address.  We have been working somewhat on a site re-design, so look for some changes here in the near future in the look and feel of the site.

 

Thanks!!

Lastly, we really want to express our appreciation for all of our readers and members.  Depending on the day of the week, there is anywhere from 800 – 1000 of you visiting the site.  It’s unfortunate that you are in the position to do so, but we hope that it is of some comfort that there is such a supportive community and (hopefully) helpful posts and valuable resources.

We invite anyone who has not posted a comment yet to do so.  In fact, we recommend that you do.  Feel free to talk about your feelings and your situation and solicit the help and advice from others –whether you are the cheater or the betrayed.   There are lots of helpful souls that visit here who are more than happy to lend their support and/or advice.

 

Share it forward

Also, if you like a post or feel it can benefit others, please share it.  There is a set of share buttons at the bottom of each post and we would appreciate it if you can use it. 

We realize that you more than likely don’t want this type of stuff plastered all over your Facebook page, so share it to StumbleUpon, Digg, Reddit, or other bookmarking sites instead.  Thanks!

That’s it!  We realize this survey re-cap was very long and we appreciate you reading all the way through.  This has probably been the most informative survey we have conducted and we do thank all of you who participated.

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    14 replies to "The Results from the Emotional Affair Journey Reader Survey"

    • Battle born

      Awesome Doug & Linda! While the results don’t surprise me too much, it was nice to know that so many of us are not crazy and alone in our misery. I was mostly surprised by the age group of the betrayed. Sad for it to happen to any of us, but for those of us who have entrusted our very souls to our partner for so many years is astounding. Not because of the possibility of complacency, but that we thought we knew our spouses better. Very, very sad.

      • Doug

        I agree Battle born. I too was quite surprised by the age group as well as the number of years most were married.

    • ForeverLearning

      I am very surprised at the low responses on the video/audio part of the survey. I have learned SO much from the video, audio, and pdfs on the Higher Learning page. Doug and Linda, please keep up the important work!

      The content you choose to pass along on that page have been some of the richest resources for me and have greatly helped me understand the whole psychology behind affairs. This has actually helped me not take the affair so personally (a great feat!). I am still a work in progress regarding healing and recovering from the hit this sordid mess took on my self esteem, but gaining insight sure is a comfort!

    • one step at a time

      I think the reason the video/audio has low responses is due to the age group. I fall in that age group and have been married for 32 years and I am not tech savy.
      Just my thoughts. I would like to know better how to download things so I can listen while on the road. I have to spend a lot of time driving.

      • Doug

        Thanks for that input One Step. Tell me what type of device you are trying to download things to and perhaps I can help. I’m no expert by any means but I’ll give it whirl.

    • Saw the Light (formerly Roller Coaster Rider)

      I am frequenting the site less as I am divorcing and don’t really want to find my identity in being betrayed, but I still find a lot of comfort in the fact that so many have been through what I’ve experienced and I’ve found definite support and understanding here. The survey was indeed very interesting. Doug and Linda, I really appreciate you both, and the ways you’ve shared your lives in order to help others facing the Black Hole of infidelity. Thank you.

      • Battle born

        STL, wherever you are, a big THANK YOU for sharing your life with us. You have helped us through many, many days through thick and thin. I am sorry that you could not continue your marriage, but on the other hand you need to be .. No strike that, you deserve to be happy with yourself. Peace be with you and throughout the future. BB

    • CBB

      Dear Linda and Doug, I sincerely appreciate the work and personal emotions you put in this Blog!! It’s the best source I ever stumbled upon and I am so grateful I did!
      As for the results I’m not surprised but there must be a byas just due to the people you target.
      I was attracted by the primary aim to save the marriage, the overall willingness to try and understand. (so of course more people with a relationship worth fighting for, more people needing to know and talk about the problems)
      My disappointment is the minor number of cheaters on this site it could be of great help (but they are probably not the ones in pursuit of answers; I know that if my husband were more familiar with English he would still turn away after reading it for five minutes).But It’ very difficult to meet both needs and keeping it reasonable. e.g. One of the frustrations like “I’ve been used by the other person” (not only my H but even I (BS) find some truth in it) but it feels like its making excuses not to take full responsibility …
      As for us being still in pain. Slowly progressing for the better I sometimes feel the need to let go of this blog because it’s still somewhat confronting and a trigger in itself. But I feel a bit disloyal when I do because of the tremendous help I got from it especially from those people further along the road. About Video’s and pods two reasons for me to dislike them : indeed age group and 2nd the identification by putting face’s to the story. I find it more easy to relate to a written story when I can fill in the picture myself (like a movie based on a book, sometimes the actor is not what you had in mind while reading the book) It’s probably a cultural difference because I’ve encountered the same problem at work when translating information from English websites with “testimonials” . We like to replace them with statements.
      And if it’s interviews with experts I find it a bit short, in written text the issue is explained in more depth. e.g. the article on PTSD was brilliant. I suddenly understood very clearly what my counselor was trying help me with..
      Thanks again for keeping this a brilliant support source !

      • Doug

        CBB, Thanks for the kind words. I too wish that more cheaters would post on the site, but I do agree with your speculation that it is because they are not the people that are necessarily in pain and searching for answers. Most of our new reader traffic comes from Google and if you could see what the terms that are searched for, it’s obvious that 99% of these people are not cheaters.

    • Battle born

      CBB, IMO if this place is both comforting but a trigger then it is doing it’s intended job. I find that I return to this blog because it is a trigger. I know that sounds odd, but as I read some of the “new” Contributors I find myself realizing that I am getting “better.” They are at the beginning of their journey and I am ending mine, realizing that I have come a long way with the assistance of this blog.
      Sometimes I find myself checking in just because… I very rarely post, as I am sure a lot of us don’t. It is hard to post to the newer ones what helps and what doesn’t because many think we sound uncaring or too blunt. But we have been there and done that.
      I am happy for you that are progressing albeit slowly but sorry that you find this blog a trigger for you. My best to you!

      • CBB

        Dear BB, I might have given the wrong impression here. I to come back ‘because’ of the trigger and my milder reaction to it makes me realize where I came from. I posted it because I have had this feelings throughout the process but even that evolves. In the beginning it was a major trigger and when I had the feeling I was to obsessed with it I let go for a week and focused on the present. Nowadays I’m more realistic about it. Its more a reminder it’s still a scar. I sometimes leave the reading to enjoy the present -just for a week- as if it never happened…

        • Battle born

          CBB, I agree with you and must have misread your post. BB

    • Saw the Light (formerly Roller Coaster Rider)

      Thanks, BB. I’m not leaving. I appreciate what you said about deserving better, and I finally believe I will find a more peaceful and joyful life. I hope I’ll be able to share more but some days I just want to go and be someone else and forget all about this painful past. It’s just depressing. But there are better days ahead.

    • forcryin'outloud

      Since one of the question in the survey was requesting post ideas I thought this may be a good place to write about this.
      This past week I found out a woman I became friendly with in the past year is an “OW.” She had an affair with a married man, herself married and left her H for the AP only to have him stay with his wife. According to her ex she became one of those OW who just couldn’t let go of the AP. Also the AP’s wife was the one who told the OW’s ex H because she said he deserved to know. Now I’m just not sure how I feel about this woman.
      It was strange all the emotions and questions this revelation brought up for me as to whether or not I want her as a friend. Even for a brief moment I wished these cheating people had to wear a Scarlet A …CRAZY thought I know because that would include my lying CS.
      Has any other BSs come across this issue yet?

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