Infidelity affects all eight areas of successful relationships and steals in the night all that was sacred. Infidelity infects, infiltrates, and slowly poisons that thing we called love for each other. 

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By Sarah P.

As many readers know, I am a fan of the Gottman Institute and the work they do in Seattle. The reason I am a fan of the Gottman Institute is that everything that they published is research-based.

Drs. Julie and John Gottman have dedicated their lives to studying what works in the field of human psychology and what does not. They have created a list of eight areas that lead to successful relationships. These areas include:

  1. Conflict happens in every relationship.  It’s a myth to believe that in a happy relationship you’ll get along all the time. Relationship conflict serves a purpose. It’s an opportunity to get to know your partner better and to develop deeper intimacy as you talk about and work through your differences.
  2. Trust and Commitment. Trust is cherishing each other and showing your partner that you can be counted on. Choosing commitment means accepting your partner exactly as he or she is, despite their flaws.
  3. Sex and Intimacy. Romantic, intimate rituals of connection keep a relationship happy and passionate. Couples who talk about sex have more sex, but talking about sex is difficult for the majority of couples—it gets easier and more comfortable the more you do it.
  4. Work and Money. Money issues aren’t about money. They’re about what money means to each partner in a relationship. Discovering what money means to both of you will go a long way in resolving the conflicts you may have around money.
  5. Approximately two-thirds of couples have a sharp drop in relationship satisfaction shortly after a child is born, and this drop gets deeper with each subsequent child. To avoid this drop in relationship happiness, conflict needs to be low and you need to maintain your sexual relationship.
  6. Fun and Adventure. Play and adventure are vital components to a successful and joyful relationship. It’s okay if you and your partner have different ideas about what constitutes play and adventure. The key is for you to respect each other’s sense of adventure and what it means to that partner.
  7. Growth and Spirituality. The only constant in a relationship is change. The key is how each person in the relationship accommodates the growth of the other partner. Relationships can be more than just two individuals coming together—they can be stories of transformation and great contribution and meaning to the world.
  8. Honoring each other’s dreams is the secret ingredient to creating love for a lifetime. When dreams are honored, everything else in the relationship gets easier. (1)

How Do these Eight Elements of Successful Relationships Effect Affair Recovery? 

Whether someone has had an affair or not, all of these elements of successful relationships are a part of daily life when people are married. Add an affair into the mix and an affair can cause an utter meltdown of the core of your marriage.

These eight elements of successful relationships will acquire an often sinister tone when an affair is added to the mix. After all, affairs cast long and painful shadows that never disappear. These shadows of infidelity linger and lurk, as all shadows do.

Now, let us examine these key eight elements of successful relationships from the Gottman Institute through the lens of infidelity.


While the Gottman’s reference constructive conflict, infidelity conflict is almost never constructive in nature. It is explosive. It is raw. This conflict brings both a bone-deep and white-hot searing pain.

During these moments of conflict, you might find yourself stuck in feeling conditional love or stuck in wanting only one outcome for a conversation.

This ‘stuckness’ has the ability to set up a lose/lose situation OR it has the ability to make your wayward spouse feel the pain of what it is like to have parts of you that are no longer accessible to them.

Other times, you might find yourself withdrawing emotionally and not having the ability to feel anything during arguments.

Conflict will be wherever infidelity lives.

I came across a very interesting song called The Bed Song by Amanda Palmer. The song is a life-long survey of a couple who withdrawals slowly. I won’t give away the interesting ending.

During conflict, the one thing that we can rely on are fair fighting rules such as these:

  • Maintain Emotional Control Using Deep Breathing
  • Don’t Interrupt Your Partner.
  • Be Respectful.
  • Don’t Fear the Conflict Itself.
  • Don’t Bring Up the Past unless it’s About the Affair.
  • Stay with the Issue At Hand.
  • Don’t Generalize.
  • Don’t Lash Out in Extreme Anger.
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Fighting is not necessarily a bad thing; the worse thing is being the couple that never talks about anything.

Trust and Commitment.

I love that the Gottman Institute also has a formula for rebuilding trust after an affair and it is called Atone, Attune, and Attach. I have written about this three-step process before, but it is eternally relevant to rebuilding trust. Terry Gaspard, a contributor from the Gottman Institute said this about the process:

“Phase 1: Atone

The cheater must first express remorse. Rebuilding a relationship after infidelity is not possible without this action, according to Dr. Gottman. He writes that, “The wounded partner will feel the stirrings of new faith only after multiple proofs of trustworthiness. Atonement cannot occur if the cheater insists that the victim take partial blame for the affair.”

Honesty and Full Disclosure
It is critical that the cheater understands their partner’s feelings and accepts responsibility without defensiveness. There can’t be anymore secrets and the cheater must confess. While full disclosure is painful, it allows for transparency, verification, and vulnerability.

Couples healing from the pain of infidelity need to gain insight into what went wrong without accusing. While it’s true that some partners will feel angry, hurt, and betrayed when they learn their love interest has done something unacceptable to them, honestly confronting issues is the best way to regain trust and intimacy.

In order to do this, the cheater must become more aware of their vulnerabilities and explore their reasons for returning to their partner. For instance, Vanessa realized that she had been unhappy in her marriage with Shawn for some time and wanted a more active sex life without blaming him for being distracted or not initiating sex more often.

There Won’t Be a Second Chance
The person who is unfaithful must put an end to the affair and end all contact with his or her lover. This no “second chance” rule may seem harsh but it’s a huge disincentive to straying. For instance, Shawn felt strongly that he would not be able to forgive Vanessa if she was unfaithful to him again or had any contact with her former lover. She acquiesced and asked for a transfer to another division of her company.

Phase 2: Attune

The second phase, attunement, is only possible when a couple moves ahead with forgiveness and is ready to rebuild their relationship without blaming the victim of infidelity. During this phase, the couple must make a commitment to learning how to handle conflict so that it doesn’t overwhelm them. In What Makes Love Last?  Dr. Gottman offers a Blueprint and Aftermath Kit with strategies for conflict management.

Further, a critical aspect of Phase 2 is that the former cheater must now decide to make their relationship a priority. As part of this new commitment to cherish each other, the couple goes public with the state of their relationship and alerts the people closest to them (such as children and in-laws) that they are recommitted and are working toward rebuilding trust. This helps establish this new relationship as “real” and garners support.

Phase 3: Attach

Simply put, the final phase of this model is about being willing to reconnect with your partner by risking physical intimacy. If a couple is determined to stay together, the ability to attune must reach the bedroom as well. Dr. Gottman explains that, “Without the presence of sexual intimacy that is pleasurable to both, the relationship can’t begin again.”

Sexual intimacy is founded on emotional connection, which serves as a barrier against future distractions. The key to maintaining a pleasurable and meaningful sex life is intimate conversation.”(2)


Sex and Intimacy.

When an affair occurs, usually one of two things occur: a betrayed spouse kicks the wayward spouse out of the bedroom OR a betrayed spouse participates in what is called hysterical bonding. Here is a description of what hysterical bonding looks like from a reader of the Affair Recovery site:

“We are 7 months into discovery. My husband’s AP was a very sexual and busty but petite women. She works in the beauty industry and always has her hands and feet perfectly manicured and her body waxed. She would regularly send him photos of her feet (he has a foot fetish), legs and self. They would also exchange numerous sexy messages on a daily basis.

3 days after dday I also started manicuring my hands and feet, waxing, sending him selfies and photos of my feet in new high heels, sexting and giving my husband attention and giving him LOTS of sex. Like in 6-7 times a week.

My husband perceived the sex to be the most exciting and intense sex we have ever had when, in reality, there was much more anger and aggression involved from my side. If we weren’t having sex at that time, someone might have classified it as me physically assaulting him.

Looking back, my actions during the first 5 months after discovery can only be described as having been hysterical. Having had time to regain some focus and perspective and having done lots of soul searching and recovery work, I have come to the realization that much of what I have done was: 1. a frantic/hysteric attempt at meeting my husband’s every need; and 2. The refusal to be outdone by his AP who, even till this day, I perceive to be nothing more than a piece of sleazy, fake, cheap trash.”

That’s a fair explanation of what it looks like to hysterically bond with another.

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Now, let’s look at what it is to sexually shut down after D-Day. When a betrayed spouse sexually withdrawals and sleeps in the guest room, there are usually many good reasons for this withdrawal. Some of them include:

  • The first and most important one is that a sacred bond has been broken
  • Concern about STDs, which is both a logical and a valid concern
  • Recurring thoughts of the other person being in bed with or saying “I love you” to the other person
  • Wondering if the other person was better in bed or had a better body than the betrayed
  • The utter disgust that occurs due to a wayward spouse’s hands, mouth, and genitals touching the hands, mouth, and genitals of another. 

Work and Money.

Michael Hyatt, a transformational speaker and author wrote:

“We can all do the math for ourselves, but by my counting there are … major reasons to run, not walk, from infidelity.

It’ll cost your reputation. People in our culture disagree about morality, but there’s remarkable agreement about one sin: infidelity. It’s wrong and everyone knows it.

No one’s handing out scarlet A’s today, but people will find out, and they will not forget—even if some are gracious enough to forgive.

It might cost your job. Most affairs start at work, and many affairs end careers. If you’re in ministry, this is a given. You’re canned. You might get reinstated or hired at another church, but don’t count on it. Depending on company policy, you could get the axe in all sorts of other job environments, too—especially if you’re having an affair with a subordinate. You might as well update your resumé right now. Even Ashley Madison’s CEO is on the street after the hack and news of his own affairs.

It’ll cost you money. The bad thing about losing your job is that affairs are expensive. Secrecy and cover-ups come at a price—a couple thousand dollars, easy.” (3)

When the Affair Partners Work Together


There is nothing like infidelity to make a nuclear wasteland of a family. Family? What family? On D-Day it is as if your cheating spouse is an emotional terrorist who just strapped a nuclear bomb to themselves and took you and your kids along.

You have to deal with the utter loss of devastation of everything you thought you knew,

Michael Hyatt also added that infidelity “will probably cost your family. Two thirds of marriages are toast after an affair, and most of those that survive take years of repentance, forgiveness, counseling, and healing to find any sort of restoration. Betrayal is a hard thing to overcome.

The same goes for kids. If you have children, they’ll be confused and hurt by your betrayal. Kids suffer special difficulty in cases of infidelity because they’re usually stuck in the middle, holding a burden no one should have to carry.

It’ll cost your legacy. If the average affair lasts just six months, are you willing to trade that for the kind of things you grandchildren will say about you?” (3)

But worse, what if a cheating spouse dips into savings or college funds to fund their affair? Worse yet, if you get divorced, any financial legacy you would hope to leave for your children is gone due to attorney’s fees and the splitting of assets.

Fun and adventure.

Fun and adventure… what?

What fun?

What adventure? Did I miss something?

Oh… I get it. Maybe there is some adventure to be found here. Here is the adventurous part:

On a whim, your spouse took a two thousand pound brick, fastened the brick with chains, then fastened one end of the chain to your heart.

Then, your spouse hired a tow truck to lift that two thousand pound brick with you attached and dump it in the ocean. As the brick tore your heart from your chest, you laid breathless on the floor.

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I mean there is nothing more adventurous like having your heart ripped from your body and then sinking it 6,000 feet below sea level.

But, maybe my ex was right. Maybe I am a proverbial “wet blanket” (like my ex used to say) solely during the time he was having his affair.

Nevertheless, having my heart tied to a brick and torn from my body is certainly not my brand of fun.

How about you?

Yeah, I think this one is self-explanatory. There is no fun and adventure when it comes to infidelity.

Affairs are a dangerous game. The clip that comes to mind is this one from the Pixar Film, The Incredibles. In case you have not seen it, in the clip below, the “would be” mistress to the father (in the film) has unleashed ballistic missiles to blow up the plane that the wife and her children are flying in. The other woman succeeds and the plane is blown up. Luckily, mom/wife is resourceful:

I am not so resourceful and that type of adventure is certainly not for me.

Growth and Spirituality.

It would be an oxymoron to believe someone becomes more spiritual during the act of ‘shagging’ the neighbor lady. Such a concept is ridiculous; there is no spiritual growth during an affair.

What about emotional growth?

In Michael Hyatt’s article about infidelity he continued, “It’ll cost you your emotional health. People start affairs because they get an emotional charge out of a new relationship. It doesn’t last, and the fallout is almost always emotionally damaging. The average affair lasts about six months, but the negative effects can last a lot longer. The strain of keeping secrets and maybe losing an entire life can be unbearable. “The person confessing to an infidelity experiences the full gamut,” says Pam Gerhardt: “guilt, self-loathing. . . . Leading a double life can become increasingly difficult for people engaged in affairs.” (3)

Additionally, if someone were to believe in the 10 commandments and were to believe in “God’s rules,” the sin of adultery is considered among the worst.

Adultery destroys the souls of others, even the cheater. It is just a matter of time. The family takes the hit early on, but when a person wakes up to the wrong they have done to innocent people, it will haunt them for the rest of their lives.


This one is self-explanatory. If your dream was to retire and buy a house in Portugal in a small, fishing village, that dream is likely to evaporate.

Before your spouse cheated on you, finding lovely time alone on a beach in Portugal sounded like heaven.

But, now it might sound like a type of hell on earth; everything has changed.

Infidelity changes everything.

Infidelity is not something that can be neat and tidy, folded, and wrapped with a bow, then set aside for next year.


Infidelity is the acid that touches and destroys, drip by drip, everything that you once held dear. 

How we see our spouse also changes. This change often causes any and all dreams we had to disappear into thin air until not even a whiff remains.

In Summary

Infidelity affects all eight areas of successful relationships and steals in the night all that was sacred. Infidelity infects, infiltrates, and slowly poisons that thing we called love for each other. 

Each person’s infidelity journey is slightly different and the way these eight areas are affected will be slightly different depending on the couple.

But, the common thread that binds us betrayed spouses together is being the recipients of betrayal itself. Being betrayed gives us lifetime memberships to the club we thought we would NEVER join; for we were not that couple.

That couple existed somewhere else; but never right under our own nose. And so we remain lifetime members of the club no one wants to be in, but remains in.

How about you?

  • Can you tell us about the one area of your marriage that infidelity affected the most?
  • Can you tell us about one of your worst nightmares after D-Day?
  • How long did it take to scrape yourself off the floor after betrayal?
  • Do you believe your relationship will be forever changed or do you believe you can simply glue your relationship back together and move on?
  • What part of this article was the hardest to read?
  • As always, please tell us what is on your mind, even if it is off topic. We are all here to support each other and provide a safe harbor from the storm.



    19 replies to "How Infidelity Affects the Eight Areas that Lead to Successful Relationships"

    • Sarah P.

      Hi All,
      Could anyone relate to this article? I hear the crickets chirping. It’s a lovely sound, but I would love to hear from you even more.


      • Shifting Impressions

        I agree with Another One…..there is just so much info to respond to, in this article. Every single area is effected when you are betrayed. Discussion on one area at a time might work better. Everything was shattered in the one moment when I stumbled upon the incriminating emails.

        I cried almost everyday for three years. Yes the relationship is forever changed as am I forever changed. One of the hardest things was simply sleeping in the same bed. Sleep itself was hard enough, let alone having the person you thought could never betray you, lay beside you as you sleep.

        • Another One

          Oh my goodness, sleep! Or lack thereof. I didn’t sleep at all for almost a week and I don’t think I’ve had a full, good night’s sleep in the past four months. And it’s so true about the stranger in my bed who looked just like my husband but wasn’t him.

    • Another One

      I think it’s hard to respond as this articles covers so much ground. I can definitely say that my husband’s affair has affected all eight areas but I couldn’t say which one the most. And I think how we feel the effect on certain areas also varies, especially with time.

      I’ll tell you something that is probably not as widely talked about as trust or money or other topics, and that is family but by that I mean extended family in particular. My husband had to disclose his affair to his parents and siblings, all of whom expressed support and love for him (of course!). Nobody expressed any sympathy or support for me personally or more than the expected token support for our marriage. This is not something that we’ve been able to focus on as we’re only four months out from d-day so we’ve had more important/urgent things to worry about. However I expect it will be a source of tension and conflict later. I always knew they didn’t really accept me as part of the family (cultural/racial differences) but now it has been plainly shown to my husband that I’m right and, what’s more, that they cannot be classified as friends of the marriage. This will be very hard for him to accept and I expect there will be a lot of resistance and excuse making. Not looking forward to that at all.

      • Sarah P.

        Hi Another One,
        That is really sad to hear that your h’s family seems to have more empathy for him than empathy for you.

        You mentioned the racial and cultural differences. Those could affect recovery much more than you realize even right now. When I was in school we looked at the statistics surrounding cross cultural marriages. And these were marriages that were not in the midst of the infidelity. We had to look at how cultural differences can affect different areas of marriages since some differences are complete opposites. For example, if a Christian marries a Jew and they have a child, there will be arguments over baptism versus having a bris ceremony, Hebrew school versus regular school, Sunday school versus Jewish school for children. Hanukkah versus Christmas. Bar Mitvah versus none. All those cultural issues will become extremely challenging to overcome, especially since Jews are such an extremely small racial group. They want their traditions kept due to their small numbers.

        But, if you throw an affair into a Christian-Jewish marriage it gets even more complex due to Jewish law. Adultery is immediate grounds for divorce and breaks the marriage contract. Jews sign a marriage contract called a Ketubah. (Of course it depends to what degree a person practices Judaism. There are some secular Jews who are more assimilated and may or may not “observe” certain traditions or belief systems. Or they may not observe any).

        But, back to when I was in school. We studied the different ways a Western therapy approach may or may not step on the beliefs of other cultural systems and thus how some Western beliefs may not be appropriate for certain cultures. We also learned that most people are most comfortable with people with the same belief and cultural systems. I did not want to turn this into an anthropology lecture and how many folks will stick to their own group. I am reporting a cultural trend that can be measured.

        We also see this in families. There is the belief that “blood is thicker than water” across almost all cultures. So, if a blood relative does something hurtful to someone outside the Genetic family system, people still generally side with the blood relative.

        Another One, I am sorry that you are going through all of this. I sincerely hope that in time his family will come to empathize with you more and hold him accountable for what he did to you. What he did is NOT right, regardless of blood being thicker than water. Personally, I would be horrified if one of my children cheated on their spouse, no matter who they were married to. I have taught my sons to have ethics in all situations; especially when life gets difficult. I have told them to do the ethical thing at all times. Whether or not they continue to follow this code of honor is up to them. When they are fully out of my home, who knows what they will do. But they will always know how I feel about infidelity and they won’t get a sympathetic ear from me if they cheat.

        Another one, can you tell us more about what happened to you?

        Big hugs,

        • Another One

          Blood is definitely thicker than water as far as H’s family, especially his parents, is concerned!

          My story: four months ago I found out H had been having an over 12 month long affair (mainly emotional with some physical aspects) with an old friend he’d lost touch with and recently re-connected with. It was a real shock. I’d been a little uneasy about how much time he spent with her but since most of that time was spent in the presence of other friends I talked myself out of it. Finally one week a number of things happened that I couldn’t ignore and I confronted him. All I did was ask if something was going on between the two of them and he felt so relieved at not having to lie anymore the whole (or most of it anyway) story came pouring out.

          This woman was known to his family and was friendly with his siblings so he felt the need to confess to them too. Their reactions were not surprising but not encouraging. They were shocked but supportive (of him) but I think they don’t much care about me or about our marriage and seem to believe, as so many people who haven’t been there do, that if there was no sex then it couldn’t have been that bad. His mother’s reaction was particularly appalling, one of her least objectionable actions was when she told him that since he’d already apologised he should just forget it and move on.

          We’re working through things, it will be a long, slow, hard road but I believe we’ll come out of it stronger.

          • Fractured heart, wounded beat

            Another One,

            Boy, do I ever feel for you with the in-law drama. My MIL acted sympathetic at first, actually fairly convincingly. However, she attacked me as soon as she didn’t “agree” with my needs to feel secure. She blamed me for the affair. What’s more, she did this less than two weeks before DDay3, when my husband was told to leave. It was at my most vulnerable time and honestly drove me over the edge. She even gave him a birthday card days later saying how proud she was of the man he was and how he went after what he wanted! Once he returned from his insanity (living with the old whore for more than two months), I tried the “bigger person” thing and “made nice” with the MIL. Well, I’ve always felt that she didn’t really like or accept me (after more than two decades and birthing her only grandchildren) and have even had others refer to “what she says about you”. She’s very passive aggressive and covertly controlling, likely why she cannot handle me (or my daughter) because she cannot control me.

            Fast forward to the holidays and my birthday, she was invited to my home on my birthday and couldn’t even give me a birthday card, again (her oopsie! I forgot dig over the years). Not even to appear accepting after a year of hell thanks to her spawn. Well, I’m done and her son (like your h) FINALLY sees her clearly.

            It’s amazing that some women can never forgive you for taking away their sons and will never view you as good enough, even when their own sons are cheaters!

      • Colleen

        I feel grateful that his family totally took my side.

    • leaningonhope

      Sarah, thank you for this article. It is fully-loaded, yes. But helpful. Lots to think about. I could relate to way too many of your statements.
      And I am hoping you will explain or expound on some…
      ‘During these moments of conflict, you might find yourself stuck in feeling conditional love or stuck in wanting only one outcome for a conversation. This ‘stuckness’ has the ability to set up a lose/lose situation OR it has the ability to make your wayward spouse feel the pain of what it is like to have parts of your that are no longer accessible to [him]. Other times, you might find yourself withdrawing emotionally and not having the ability to feel anything during arguments.”
      Can you explain more about the lose/lose ‘stuckness’? Or the conditional love?

      What complicates my situation is that, after d-day of his emotional affair with a co-worker, there were other betrayals (his family picking his side, financial devastation, throwing me under the bus to his children, family, and ex, physical violence in our home) over the course of about 6 months, the last and probably most impactful being moving out “to live closer to where his sons live”, which caused many more betrayals (in my opinion) involving his ex-wife and her partner, and his children. It has been about 1-1/2 years of separation now. Marriage counseling at the beginning was seriously damaging. We were not aware of the ‘strategy’ our therapist had for the end goal of ending our marriage. New therapist, helpful but I could almost say too little, too late. We ran out of insurance to pay for it; it was recently cut off. Now we have no one speaking truth and sanity into our situation.

      Probably the biggest broken part of me is trust. I don’t know how to convey to him the importance of building trust, and he doesn’t really try, to be honest. And I think some reason for that is he is just not informed, not understanding the full impact of everything that has happened between us and to me in all of this.

      All of this infidelity stuff, and the following traumas, have cost us SO MUCH. They’ve cost ME so much. I follow Dr. Henry Cloud with his Boundaries lessons, and I learned just today that a damaging person not only breaks trust, but they cause the ‘trust muscle’ to be broken as well, so the damage flows into other areas of a person’s life. It erodes our capacity to continue to invest, is his quote. So that made me think of all the ways that I used to invest in my life, him, our marriage, our families, my stepsons, Prior to the affair. And how I don’t now. How I look around and have zero emotional energy to do anything I used to do anymore. How I feel dead inside. With each attempt to reconnect with my stepsons (there’s been a few), I am disappointed and discouraged. With every attempt to connect with my husband (many- weekly), to talk about us, to invite him to spend time with me, to try to engage in conversation that our good therapist taught us, I feel like I’m met with apathy, blank stares, arguments, defensiveness, procrastination, blame shifting. I am trying to remember the last time we had a good time together… maybe over the holidays when we spent some good time together. I feel like I am stuck in a very deep rut. Psychologically, emotionally, physically, spiritually…

      There are so many comments I could leave here… even as I read your questions at the end of the article, Sarah, I could just answer those…

      • Sarah P.

        Hi Leaningonhope,
        I am sorry for all you have been through. Let me tackle some of your questions.

        Let’s talk about conditional love. Conditional love is the opposite of unconditional love. Conditional love is based on loving someone due to what they do or do not do, love them based on what they say or do not say, love them based on conditions.

        After an affair, the prior love bond is broken. In the process of recovery, love almost always becomes conditional because love has to be rebuilt. A wayward spouse might (wrongly) use conditional love as an excuse for why they strayed. “My betrayed spouse did not do such and such and that caused me NOT to be in love with them anymore and they made me cheat.” That type of statement is rooted both in conditional love and blame-shifting.

        But, then there is the betrayed spouse’s perspective. A betrayed spouse will have a valid reason IF they find themselves falling out of love with their betrayed spouse. And it’s also normal for a betrayed spouse to not be able to fall in love again unless a betrayed spouse does this or that. They may find themselves stuck in waiting for their wayward spouse to say or do the right thing (conditional love) and be stuck because feeling like they can ever unconditionally love again is impossible.

        Moving past this stuck-ness will often depend on trust. The wayward spouse’s job is rebuild trust with the betrayed spouse. Trust is essential to getting a betrayed spouse moving forward.

        Clear as mud?

        I wanted to address the idea of your separation and the physical violence. When physical violence has entered the picture, I have found that reconciliation is difficult. When physical violence has occurred that is an act that can never be taken back and you have to ask yourself if it’s really worth trying to reconcile with a violent cheater. The future usually holds more of the save behavior. That makes me concerned for you.

        But, how do you feel about the physical violence?

        Big hugs,


        • leaningonhope

          Hi Sarah.
          Thanks so much for your explanations. They did help to clarify for me. And yes, that’s the way I’ve been operating in the last year or so. Definitely conditional. Doing a lot of watching and waiting to see if things are changing for the better and for the long haul. And definitely stuck there. I have this underlying attitude of “he’s got a lot of fixing to do” and I haven’t given much in return, to be honest. Right or wrong, it’s what has been.

          So I have a thought about this unconditional or conditional love topic….it seems to me that there are (or can be) both types of love in any close relationship because there are expectations in both directions. And probably most easily seen in a parent/child relationship is the unconditional love/conditional relationship “model”, where the parent has unconditional love for their child but the child cannot do whatever he pleases- there are conditions, boundaries, rules, lessons, etc. for the child to abide by. Treating his parents with respect for example. If he doesn’t, there may be some consequence like being sent to his room, and an apology expected.
          So conditional love isn’t necessarily a bad thing, unless it is the only love expressed. Just thinking about this while I’m typing…
          I hate being in this position, too. In this waiting, like I’m the “parole officer” while he is “on probation”. It’s terrible.

          As far as the violence in the home. It was holes punched in the wall. Out of control emotions. It happened right after d-day (2/2018). My h’s personality is generally steady, thoughtful, and calm. So the violence was out of character. I don’t know if this will be a recurring issue. Or if he is a “good” man that made a “terrible” mistake. And I certainly don’t want to downplay it. I just am not sure yet. I don’t know that it will NOT ever happen again. There is no guarantee for me in any of this. On many levels.
          After all of that happened in that 6-month span, he was diagnosed with adhd and has since been on medication, which has helped him. I don’t know what else to say about it.

          I hear you, Sarah, I’m concerned for me, too. Concerned that 2 years have gone by and we haven’t even talked about the affair and its affects with either therapist. We mostly have gotten waylaid with learning effective communication skills, current events (like budgeting), and parenting/step-parenting issues. Sometimes I want to bring it up and I don’t because I don’t want to be accused of bringing up “old news” or “throwing it in his face” or …what’s another excuse to not talk about the past? I’m getting “hystorical”. I don’t know how to broach the subject anymore. And I still have questions.

          I think my marriage relationship will be forever changed. We will either have complete failure and the marriage will end, or we will be able to weather this terrible storm and come out on the other side stronger and closer. I believe in redemption and well-placed hope. None of us is perfect and we learn to applaud the strengths and come alongside the weaknesses. *as long as the weaknesses don’t fall into the abuse categories.

          Thank you~

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